There is a full moon, a blue moon, on the 31st. This twice in one month full moon only happens every 2.7 years and I intend to bask in all it’s glory. Here’s a 3 minute ritual that’s divine.

Peace

mooncircles full moon ritual

My actual physical reality has been more chaotic than my mind lately so I haven’t had the energy to process the swirling realizations and epiphanies much less express them in any tangible or coherent way, so as usual I am left with the lingering desire to run fast and far or dig a hole in the back yard and lay in it for awhile.
I am a mother and as far as mothers days go….this was the “mother” of all mother’s days. Uber mothers day. The mother load of mothering. Just a snippet…I had to peel my 90 yr. old grandmother off the floor where she lay after she fell and cut her arm open…I arrived to find her laying in a pool of blood. After picking her up and holding her, dressing her wounds and getting her to the ER, I had to sit with my 94 yr.old grandfather, who has a fleeting memory of who I am, where we are, why we are there, etc… for 3 hours.
I am having some very enormous realizations of my impermanence, desires, fears and self destructive tendencies to foster dependent relationships based on my very irritating love/abandonment issues. Can you tell I am just rolling in my Saturn return, getting very dirty wallowing in my ego based reality.

yuck

yuck

AND
more yuck.

BTW: Listening to A LOT of R. Kelly and Maxwell lately. Not sure what that’s about but there is just something incredibly soothing about their music. Very sensual, like sitting in a big chocolate leather arm chair with a glass of smooth bourbon…………………………